Today i just gave a PC 17" Monitor to Stanley. I feel happy doing so, i can only say that is a kind of simple happiness.
Recently promised making a logo picture for Roy. I did some research and came up with a design that i like. However, it lacks something.
I'm so lazy that i don't feel like transferring my Batam photos. I'm only willing to lie on my bed playing my PSP - Winning Eleven.
Nite Blog, no photo for this entry.
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Amazed
I am amazed by the increasing number of dogs and stray cats in the street, non-literally.
The dogs just mate and move on to the next cat. While the cats get hurt silly, in some cases, pregnant. Some moved on, some just trapped themself.
What did the cats fall prey to the dogs? Who is to blame? Oh well, i can't be bothered.
Just my view for young cats out there, don't be silly and open your eyes bigger. Only the extreme rare breed is loyal - like me.
Singlish Jokes
Here's some Singlish jokes i would like to share. Quite funny.
Teacher: Ah Kau, if your father has $10 and you ask him for $6, how
much would your father still have?
Ah Kau: $10.
Teacher: You don't know Maths.
Ah Kau: You don't know my father la!
Mother: David, come here.
David: Yes, mum.
Mother: You really disappoint me. Your results are getting worse.
David: But but but....I will only get my report card tomorrow ???
Mother: I know that, but I'm going Hong Kong tomorrow
so I'm scolding you now.
Father: Why did you fail your Mathematics Test?
Son: On Monday, teacher said 3 + 5 = 8
Father: So?
Son: On Tuesday, she said 4 + 4 = 8.
On Wednesday, she said 6 + 2 = 8.
If she can't make up her mind, how I know the right answer one ???
Girl: Do you love me?
Boy: Yes Dear.
Girl: Would you die for me?
Boy: No la, mine is undying love only !!!
Man: How old is your father?
Boy: Same as me la.
Man: How can that be?
Boy: He only became a father when I born lo !!!
Teacher: Simon, your composition on "My Dog" is exactly the same as
your brother's. Did you copy his?
Simon: No la, teacher. It's the same dog!
Father: Your teacher says she finds it impossible to teach you anything!
Son: That's why I tell you she's no good!
Teacher: Where were you born?
Student: Singapore , Sir.
Teacher: Which part?
Student: All of me ma....
A boy came home from school with his exam results.
" What did you get?" asked his father.
" My marks are under water," said the boy.
" What do you mean 'under water'?"
" They are all below 'C' (sea) level !"
Photos taken at Marina Barrage.
My Share of EOY 08 Cosplay Photos. Anyone who wish to have the original photo, just tag or email me at Vincent@icreativecapital.com.
I'm not a fan of dolls, but here's one of them for doll fans
This would be any Gundam fan's favourite cute collection
Group photo
This photo is for all ladies viewer (XY & ling etc.) I like the guy with gun, he looks good.
Free Ad for Pocky...
The guy is also very nice looking.
Nice Misa, pretty
A big contrast due to modern backdrop and historic characters
Goth Loli !!
Bunny !!
She's good too
Ah my favourite among all i have takenThis Eoy, i did not take too many photos. I am also pretty lazy to ask. =)
Hidden Photos
One is my darling, the other is our common poly classmate Steph. Pretty Pretty.
Btw these photos have not been publish till today in my blog exclusively. =)
This is a photo of me. See at your own risk.
Resolution
Recently I have started listing my Resolution for Yr 2009. I met most of my resolution for Yr 2008, but I intend to make Yr 2009 a better year, despite the bad economy outlook and world situation.
I won’t list my resolution here however I will just roughly touch on what I will be focusing on.
As a start, I will be strengthening my data control & mgt (management). With better data control, I will be able start to gathering more information on various areas. Areas like family planning, relationship mgt, financial mgt, and health mgt will be part of my data control.
Besides all those, I will focus a great deal of effort on self improvement and business mgt. I didn’t set any resolution on self improvement this year, so in the coming year, I will need to work harder.
The inclusion of family planning is also something new, which makes my goals in Yr 2009 much more interesting. For relationship mgt, I will be coming up with my own Family Day and Friendship Day. At least there will be more things to look forward to per month.
Many goals are set for the year. Those goals are prone to unforeseen circumstances I fear. Nonetheless, if those are achieved, it will be a fruitful year for me.
Battle
As I tried to know more of how friends around me are faring in this world, I began to compare their status to mine. I definitely pale in comparison when talking about financial status. The only thing comparable that I have is having a stable relationship with a life partner, which I have come quite far as compared to some of my peers.
Due to this comparison, I could easily fall into depression as I began to self-doubt my own intelligence, my ability, my decision making, and my image etc. A pure sense of low confident engulfs my heart. What went wrong, why am I so incompetence, why am I earning so little?
My battle against depression rages on.
The empathetic angel in my heart keeps telling me that I need not compare with everyone better off than me. There are always people less well off than me. I should be happy with what I already have, and work on to improve on what I have.
Yet the cunning devil in me keeps putting me down. He wants me to see the fragility of my life. He enlarges my weaknesses, while showing me how well others are doing. He forces me to bow down and give in to fate, so that he can destroy my life completely.
A part of me keeps on fighting the forces of evil and keeps reminding myself not to give up. A part of me keeps making me see how a failure I am, homing and digging in to my confidence in life, trying so hard to destroy it completely.
Luckily there is a pillar of support that helps contain the devil inside me. She is XY, whom I find my last remaining strength from. Nothing is for certain, thus I can’t help but fear the possibility of life without her.
Perhaps life would be much simpler without much thinking. There are people who do not plan for their future, living life by the day. Can I afford to be like them and ignore the uncertainties in life? Or should I resign to fate that I am much less competence than my peers?
In fact, I have never doubt my own ability until I see what the people in the world are producing. I may be happy with my design or work, then one day I saw someone else’s work, I got so embarrassed with the standard of work I did.
So tell me how should I face such reality? The angel is telling me to get up, find ways to improve and win the competition. The devil is telling me that I am simply not good enough, and I am good at none.
When I was at AFA 08, my friends asked me to make a drawing onto the area where visitors are allowed to add in their manga drawings. I saw two types of people. There are people who are happy to contribute their drawing even though their art are clearly out of proportion and certainly below-par, while there are some who contribute their really good talent and skills in drawing. My possible production would only stand in as a mediocre or even as a below-average piece of work. Hence I declined any suggestion to show my drawings.
My question is - what makes those people contribute their drawings when clearly their skills are not on par with others?
Even when it comes to working, a company may hire someone who claims to be competent in excel. When he starts work, he didn’t know how to use v-lookup function, macro etc. that is required in his work. Yet he dares to apply for the job and live off his company.
Similarly, I do not use adobe illustrator but certain job description states must be knowledgeable in adobe illustrator, do I just ignore that requirement and act as if I know?
There are again two types of people I see. One is someone who is less conscious of things around them and the other one is someone who looks at things more seriously.
Maybe I should start to worry less, and fight my way through. Perhaps like kung fu panda, who has no talent in kung fu, fighting his way in the world of martial arts. Eventually finding his way around it.
I do have similarity with that panda. I am fat and with dark eye circles. Hope I will find my way one day too, before it’s too late.
As I tried to know more of how friends around me are faring in this world, I began to compare their status to mine. I definitely pale in comparison when talking about financial status. The only thing comparable that I have is having a stable relationship with a life partner, which I have come quite far as compared to some of my peers.
Due to this comparison, I could easily fall into depression as I began to self-doubt my own intelligence, my ability, my decision making, and my image etc. A pure sense of low confident engulfs my heart. What went wrong, why am I so incompetence, why am I earning so little?
My battle against depression rages on.
The empathetic angel in my heart keeps telling me that I need not compare with everyone better off than me. There are always people less well off than me. I should be happy with what I already have, and work on to improve on what I have.
Yet the cunning devil in me keeps putting me down. He wants me to see the fragility of my life. He enlarges my weaknesses, while showing me how well others are doing. He forces me to bow down and give in to fate, so that he can destroy my life completely.
A part of me keeps on fighting the forces of evil and keeps reminding myself not to give up. A part of me keeps making me see how a failure I am, homing and digging in to my confidence in life, trying so hard to destroy it completely.
Luckily there is a pillar of support that helps contain the devil inside me. She is XY, whom I find my last remaining strength from. Nothing is for certain, thus I can’t help but fear the possibility of life without her.
Perhaps life would be much simpler without much thinking. There are people who do not plan for their future, living life by the day. Can I afford to be like them and ignore the uncertainties in life? Or should I resign to fate that I am much less competence than my peers?
In fact, I have never doubt my own ability until I see what the people in the world are producing. I may be happy with my design or work, then one day I saw someone else’s work, I got so embarrassed with the standard of work I did.
So tell me how should I face such reality? The angel is telling me to get up, find ways to improve and win the competition. The devil is telling me that I am simply not good enough, and I am good at none.
When I was at AFA 08, my friends asked me to make a drawing onto the area where visitors are allowed to add in their manga drawings. I saw two types of people. There are people who are happy to contribute their drawing even though their art are clearly out of proportion and certainly below-par, while there are some who contribute their really good talent and skills in drawing. My possible production would only stand in as a mediocre or even as a below-average piece of work. Hence I declined any suggestion to show my drawings.
My question is - what makes those people contribute their drawings when clearly their skills are not on par with others?
Even when it comes to working, a company may hire someone who claims to be competent in excel. When he starts work, he didn’t know how to use v-lookup function, macro etc. that is required in his work. Yet he dares to apply for the job and live off his company.
Similarly, I do not use adobe illustrator but certain job description states must be knowledgeable in adobe illustrator, do I just ignore that requirement and act as if I know?
There are again two types of people I see. One is someone who is less conscious of things around them and the other one is someone who looks at things more seriously.
Maybe I should start to worry less, and fight my way through. Perhaps like kung fu panda, who has no talent in kung fu, fighting his way in the world of martial arts. Eventually finding his way around it.
I do have similarity with that panda. I am fat and with dark eye circles. Hope I will find my way one day too, before it’s too late.
Dota with Roy
Today i went out with Roy for a dinner at Liang Court. We ended up in a lan shop playing dota.
It was lots of fun playing together as a team and fighting as one.
It was an absolute epic battle which we had zero kill and yet won the game. The saying goes, we may lose the battle but we won the war. Great job bro!
Was a fun date nonetheless.
Strange World
The world is bigger than we typically think of in our daily life. It is not just the brand of make up you use, or the car that you just purchased.
With the recent terrorist attacks, many of us play the blame game. Some blame it on religion, some blame it on country, some blame it on the government etc.
So here’s what I think. Irrational people, who twisted the religion teachings / or their own belief, in order to psycho somebody / themselves to destroy others, in the name of their twisted religion / belief. However, what are the motives of the masterminds? What made them do what they are doing?
Perhaps for revenge, jealousy, greed, survival or some hidden conspiracy of world order.
People make actions as they desire results. When they abandon all conscience and concern to achieve their results, they become in-human or monstrous.
I often wonder if some of the terrorists group can be reasoned or negotiated with? Or are they totally irrationalized and can no longer be made peaceful?
I understand that many of them dislike foreign countries for stepping into their country and they form groups to oppose their intervention. Apparently, no one likes to have others meddling with their own affairs. But why would others want to intervene and “KPO” with other countries’ affair?
I cannot judge / tell for sure who start all the terrorist issue. But one thing I can guess is that, someone / country / group has made an attack / suppress on another. So the other has to retaliate, and the international community has to step in to stop the conflict and punish the aggressor.
A simplistic solution would be an act of FORGIVENESS that avoids conflict and retaliation. Yet, this solution is rarely considered or effective. For e.g. Mumbai after the terrorist attacks, would the India government and its people step out to announce their forgiveness to the aggressor? Will they ask the terrorist group to step forward to acknowledge their mistake and deeds so as to receive forgiveness? Will the terror group even apologize? Answer is NO for both sides.
So naturally, India and its people will condemn the attack, and seek redress, perhaps through retaliation or punishment. That in turn will bring in vicious cycles like US versus Terrorist groups over 911 attacks.
Perhaps forgiveness for such malicious and atrocious attacks is entirely out of the question. However, would forgiveness as most religion has suggested, be the actual answer? Or would forgiveness bring forth more audacity for terrorist to attack?
Group A suppress Group B, Group B decides to retaliate with terrorist attacks, Group A seeks redress and punishment, Group A attacks with counter terrorist measure, Group B puts up more fight and effort. The cycle will carry on with more casualties than the scenario where admittance of mistakes and forgiveness is given.
Sadly, even though I believe forgiveness is the best solution to many world affairs, it is one of the hardest to accept and implement action in human nature. You might still be able to forgive someone who slaps you in the face, but you will find it so much impossible to forgive someone who has stepped over the line and stabs you in the stomach. Perhaps it is much easier to just retaliate than to eat the humiliation and pain suffered, especially when death / fatality is involved.
No wonder there is little forgiveness in the world stage. Human have their pride, dignity and some other consideration that kills forgiveness. Like Nan Jin’s incident, if full apology and forgiveness is given, the issue would have been history.
There will always be some group of people who take pride in their own justification and beliefs that blinds them from admitting mistake or forgiving others.
As such is the flaw in human that breeds conflict and stalemate on many of the world issues we face. Hence, I believe that there will be no true world peace until full admittance of mistake and forgiveness is practiced by everyone. In human nature, there is simply no such thing, world peace is just a spectrum that we seek.
To make things worst, the world has many other problems.
To name a few:
- Global warming
- Rising Sea level
- Increasing amount of Natural Disasters (drought, famine, cyclone, tsunami, earthquake, Volcanic eruption)
- Diminishing and scarcity of natural resources (Power, food, water etc.)
- Diseases and plague (e.g. SARs, AIDs, or Mutated form of fatal virus etc.)
- Economy crisis, wealth gap
- War (internal and external) between countries and groups
- Nuclear weapon / Weapon of Mass Destruction threat and danger
- Extinction of life species that affects the food chain
- Pollution and damage to environment, species and life.
- Digital intrusion to private life (hacking and online crimes)
These issues are big and major ones that requires big amount of efforts and countries to resolve. I believe given the current capacity and thinking of human kind, there will only be a slow and tough resolution for each of the issues.
If we think of some issues using simple mind, for e.g. Nuclear weapon and calling for all countries to disarm them, so that it is no issue at all. NOT POSSIBLE! Many political factors, security factors, economy factors and human factors are in the way of a seemingly simple solution.
Part of the Global warming issue and scarcity of resources are due to rapid development of human civilization. However, no countries will want or will be able to stop its path on development. China and India alleged of emitting great amount of pollution from its developing industries. Asking them to stop? Almost IMPOSSIBLE, as no other country would volunteer to slow down considerably or stop their development. Like earth, it is always spinning without stop. Perhaps back at Stone Age, where there are less people and little to no pollution, that’s where the world is at its most peaceful years.
Having advance to the age we lived in right now, there is simply no return ticket. We can only strive to develop & use technology to solve the modern day issue. Hopefully it does not create more problem instead.
The more we think and look at world issue, the more worries we will get. However, the world has world leaders that deals with such issues and direct the world economy and development.
Our future lies in their plans. Somehow, I suspect that some world events could be some hidden conspiracy plan executed by world leaders. We will never know if someone is controlling the terrorist attacks or someone is planning for world domination or particular global industrial monopoly or collecting spoils from a well planned fail economy or poisonous products to slowly thin human population.
Perhaps due to scarcity of resources, plague disease and economy, world leaders might resort to hidden agenda of thinning in human population for survivability. Of course this is just an unorthodox rumor that I find funny, but some ideas have already been put in movies that depict crazy evil guys destroying human population as a heretic solution to save earth.
All these issues are seldom discussed until they affect us. So only when big disaster strikes upon us, will we notice the danger and potential that lurks around us all the time. They are like a volcano, storing energy to erupt one day.
Even so, I don’t mean to encourage anyone to start brooding on these issues. We have to concentrate on our lives at the moment. Our job is to contribute to the society with the work that we do, while those powerful ones, who will be the world leaders. They will be working to change the world. For good or for worse, only time will tell.
Meanwhile, the world needs more love, not hatred or revenge. It is always important to look at people around you who have impacted your life.
Thanksgiving is your chance to show some love.
The world is bigger than we typically think of in our daily life. It is not just the brand of make up you use, or the car that you just purchased.
With the recent terrorist attacks, many of us play the blame game. Some blame it on religion, some blame it on country, some blame it on the government etc.
So here’s what I think. Irrational people, who twisted the religion teachings / or their own belief, in order to psycho somebody / themselves to destroy others, in the name of their twisted religion / belief. However, what are the motives of the masterminds? What made them do what they are doing?
Perhaps for revenge, jealousy, greed, survival or some hidden conspiracy of world order.
People make actions as they desire results. When they abandon all conscience and concern to achieve their results, they become in-human or monstrous.
I often wonder if some of the terrorists group can be reasoned or negotiated with? Or are they totally irrationalized and can no longer be made peaceful?
I understand that many of them dislike foreign countries for stepping into their country and they form groups to oppose their intervention. Apparently, no one likes to have others meddling with their own affairs. But why would others want to intervene and “KPO” with other countries’ affair?
I cannot judge / tell for sure who start all the terrorist issue. But one thing I can guess is that, someone / country / group has made an attack / suppress on another. So the other has to retaliate, and the international community has to step in to stop the conflict and punish the aggressor.
A simplistic solution would be an act of FORGIVENESS that avoids conflict and retaliation. Yet, this solution is rarely considered or effective. For e.g. Mumbai after the terrorist attacks, would the India government and its people step out to announce their forgiveness to the aggressor? Will they ask the terrorist group to step forward to acknowledge their mistake and deeds so as to receive forgiveness? Will the terror group even apologize? Answer is NO for both sides.
So naturally, India and its people will condemn the attack, and seek redress, perhaps through retaliation or punishment. That in turn will bring in vicious cycles like US versus Terrorist groups over 911 attacks.
Perhaps forgiveness for such malicious and atrocious attacks is entirely out of the question. However, would forgiveness as most religion has suggested, be the actual answer? Or would forgiveness bring forth more audacity for terrorist to attack?
Group A suppress Group B, Group B decides to retaliate with terrorist attacks, Group A seeks redress and punishment, Group A attacks with counter terrorist measure, Group B puts up more fight and effort. The cycle will carry on with more casualties than the scenario where admittance of mistakes and forgiveness is given.
Sadly, even though I believe forgiveness is the best solution to many world affairs, it is one of the hardest to accept and implement action in human nature. You might still be able to forgive someone who slaps you in the face, but you will find it so much impossible to forgive someone who has stepped over the line and stabs you in the stomach. Perhaps it is much easier to just retaliate than to eat the humiliation and pain suffered, especially when death / fatality is involved.
No wonder there is little forgiveness in the world stage. Human have their pride, dignity and some other consideration that kills forgiveness. Like Nan Jin’s incident, if full apology and forgiveness is given, the issue would have been history.
There will always be some group of people who take pride in their own justification and beliefs that blinds them from admitting mistake or forgiving others.
As such is the flaw in human that breeds conflict and stalemate on many of the world issues we face. Hence, I believe that there will be no true world peace until full admittance of mistake and forgiveness is practiced by everyone. In human nature, there is simply no such thing, world peace is just a spectrum that we seek.
To make things worst, the world has many other problems.
To name a few:
- Global warming
- Rising Sea level
- Increasing amount of Natural Disasters (drought, famine, cyclone, tsunami, earthquake, Volcanic eruption)
- Diminishing and scarcity of natural resources (Power, food, water etc.)
- Diseases and plague (e.g. SARs, AIDs, or Mutated form of fatal virus etc.)
- Economy crisis, wealth gap
- War (internal and external) between countries and groups
- Nuclear weapon / Weapon of Mass Destruction threat and danger
- Extinction of life species that affects the food chain
- Pollution and damage to environment, species and life.
- Digital intrusion to private life (hacking and online crimes)
These issues are big and major ones that requires big amount of efforts and countries to resolve. I believe given the current capacity and thinking of human kind, there will only be a slow and tough resolution for each of the issues.
If we think of some issues using simple mind, for e.g. Nuclear weapon and calling for all countries to disarm them, so that it is no issue at all. NOT POSSIBLE! Many political factors, security factors, economy factors and human factors are in the way of a seemingly simple solution.
Part of the Global warming issue and scarcity of resources are due to rapid development of human civilization. However, no countries will want or will be able to stop its path on development. China and India alleged of emitting great amount of pollution from its developing industries. Asking them to stop? Almost IMPOSSIBLE, as no other country would volunteer to slow down considerably or stop their development. Like earth, it is always spinning without stop. Perhaps back at Stone Age, where there are less people and little to no pollution, that’s where the world is at its most peaceful years.
Having advance to the age we lived in right now, there is simply no return ticket. We can only strive to develop & use technology to solve the modern day issue. Hopefully it does not create more problem instead.
The more we think and look at world issue, the more worries we will get. However, the world has world leaders that deals with such issues and direct the world economy and development.
Our future lies in their plans. Somehow, I suspect that some world events could be some hidden conspiracy plan executed by world leaders. We will never know if someone is controlling the terrorist attacks or someone is planning for world domination or particular global industrial monopoly or collecting spoils from a well planned fail economy or poisonous products to slowly thin human population.
Perhaps due to scarcity of resources, plague disease and economy, world leaders might resort to hidden agenda of thinning in human population for survivability. Of course this is just an unorthodox rumor that I find funny, but some ideas have already been put in movies that depict crazy evil guys destroying human population as a heretic solution to save earth.
All these issues are seldom discussed until they affect us. So only when big disaster strikes upon us, will we notice the danger and potential that lurks around us all the time. They are like a volcano, storing energy to erupt one day.
Even so, I don’t mean to encourage anyone to start brooding on these issues. We have to concentrate on our lives at the moment. Our job is to contribute to the society with the work that we do, while those powerful ones, who will be the world leaders. They will be working to change the world. For good or for worse, only time will tell.
Meanwhile, the world needs more love, not hatred or revenge. It is always important to look at people around you who have impacted your life.
Thanksgiving is your chance to show some love.
Crisis
Recently i am on severve low budget for the month of Dec. I have over-spent on several items which i did not regret (Disclaimer) last month.
Today i checked my acc balance and realised i am left with lesser than expected. It is off my expected range by around 300-400 dollars. Meaning, i can't afford to spend on anything except food, and transport.
Yet this holiday season would be pretty eventful for me. I have plans to meet up with friends more often and do much more. I guess, i have to shove my plans to next month or months after i recover from the financial crisis.
Right now, i intend to pump in & use my Hong Bao money from Yr 2008 for my meal this month. This is why i like collecting Hong Bao, those money do come in handy. (XY, i know you don't like collecting, please donate all to me. She can never understand my mentality.)
Roy is a lucky guy, as i promised him a dinner at Liang Court for Udon. He would be the last friend i would meet up for an expensive dinner in this month.
So Xy, no more resturant or expensive food court. I shall hide in your house or my house for meals. *Grins*
For those (Xy or Friends) who think i am joking with the kind of crisis i am in right now... It's real. I can no longer spend on extra if i am to stay afloat.
Recently i am on severve low budget for the month of Dec. I have over-spent on several items which i did not regret (Disclaimer) last month.
Today i checked my acc balance and realised i am left with lesser than expected. It is off my expected range by around 300-400 dollars. Meaning, i can't afford to spend on anything except food, and transport.
Yet this holiday season would be pretty eventful for me. I have plans to meet up with friends more often and do much more. I guess, i have to shove my plans to next month or months after i recover from the financial crisis.
Right now, i intend to pump in & use my Hong Bao money from Yr 2008 for my meal this month. This is why i like collecting Hong Bao, those money do come in handy. (XY, i know you don't like collecting, please donate all to me. She can never understand my mentality.)
Roy is a lucky guy, as i promised him a dinner at Liang Court for Udon. He would be the last friend i would meet up for an expensive dinner in this month.
So Xy, no more resturant or expensive food court. I shall hide in your house or my house for meals. *Grins*
For those (Xy or Friends) who think i am joking with the kind of crisis i am in right now... It's real. I can no longer spend on extra if i am to stay afloat.
(I realised i am in debt. I owe XY some amount, thanks to her reminder. I am in much worst state. I feel like being in US current situation)
Will look at all my expenditure and find ways to "cut cost".
Issues and payment that made things worst
- Singtel Bill (Sudden increase in amount, have to call them and ask)
- Insurance
- EOY (Maybe forgo-ing)
- Christmas gift (Should be making e-greeting or sms greeting instead)
I feel so dead now...
Will look at all my expenditure and find ways to "cut cost".
Issues and payment that made things worst
- Singtel Bill (Sudden increase in amount, have to call them and ask)
- Insurance
- EOY (Maybe forgo-ing)
- Christmas gift (Should be making e-greeting or sms greeting instead)
I feel so dead now...
Cherish
Reading the news articles on the Singaporean Mumbai hostage that was unfortunately killed, I felt a strong and sudden sense of grieve for her even though I do not know her personally.
She is still so young, promising and has had just started her next stage in life. Her death is certainly unjust in our eyes (fellow Singaporean). Perhaps there are bits of patriotism or nationalism hidden in many Singaporean, waiting to erupt. She had certainly made it clear to many of us that we really need to cherish our love ones more. The current pain that her husband is going through would be unimaginably painful if applied to ourselves, losing someone so dear to us. Yes, and may God give her family the strength to overcome this dark period.
Having attended a few funerals in the past, I do remember the pain of losing people around me. However, in our day to day life, we seem to neglect the love and care that we should shower our love ones with. Instead, we find fault with each other and create conflicts that brings negativity to our lives.
Sadly, to cherish and to give love to people you love everyday is easier said than done.
Yet, I do put in small effort like giving a heart to people I like in MSN. That is my way of telling them, I do cherish and like them.
Their reaction: “You siao! Give it to XY lah, don’t give me okay.” Or “I don’t love you, don’t give me your heart!”
=_= !!!
Guess they will never understand my feelings for them. LOLx
No matter how painful the past may be, the only way to relieve the pain will be to see the present and move into the future.
Show me some love, save my tag board from dying. Leave me a tag. =)
Surprise
Today I had a small talk with my favorite poly classmate on msn. She has been the kind of sweet (to her bf) and cheery girl since I know her. **Note, being my favorite doesn’t mean I have special feelings for her or anything (Disclaimer).
We started chatting and I merely pop a question jokingly – “so when you are getting married?” She replied, “Next month”. I was like what!? OMG… who’s the lucky guy? Her bf that has been with her for 6 years apparently. I am so surprised that she is getting married. Anyway we had a good small chat nonetheless. Simply nostalgic.
During lunch, I met Huili who told me Iris (Ivy’s twin sister) is working in the same company as her. After Huili left, I approached Iris and…. This is what I said – “Hi Iris, how’s Ivy?”
I guess it’s kind of awkward to walk up to somebody and straight forwardly ask about someone else, especially when you hardly know her (Iris). Ivy is my secondary school classmate FYI.
Anyway it’s kind of strange to be talking to people whom I seldom talk to. Today is indeed a weird day, though it actually feels good. Somehow, they gave me a small sense of existence or at least someone in this world actually knows/remember me. Or maybe that’s what I really want from them.
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Just a link for EOY cosplay. Wanted to preserve it.
http://sgcafe.com/eoy2008/index.php
My Love
I know a couple of friends who broke up with their boy friends for as long as half a year and are still suffering right now.
So I decide to delicate my current favorite song to them, as I feel the lyrics somehow relates to them.
Here’s my interpretation
你不是真正的快乐
词曲：阿信
人 群中 哭著 你只想變成透明的顏色 (You wish to just fade away from crowd/people/reality)
你再也不會夢 或痛 或心動了
你已經決定了 你已經決定了 (You have decided not to harbor hope and given up on love)
你 靜靜 忍著 緊緊把昨天在拳心握著 (quietly you endure the pain)
而回憶越是甜 就是 越傷人了 (But the sweeter the memories you had, the more painful it gets)
越是在 手心留下 密密麻麻 深深淺淺 的刀割
你不是真正的快樂 你的笑只是你穿的保護色 (Your smile now is merely a fake front, you are never really happy now)
你決定不恨了 也決定不愛了 把你的靈魂關在永遠鎖上的軀殼 (You are in fact locking yourself up mentally)
這 世界 笑了 於是妳合群的一起笑了 (You smile only because others are smiling)
當生存是規則 不是 你的選擇 (When living on is not your choice)
於是妳 含著眼淚 飄飄盪盪 跌跌撞撞 的走著 (you can only endure, hurting yourself more in your path)
你不是真正的快樂 你的笑只是你穿的保護色
你決定不恨了 也決定不愛了 (You decide not to hate him, and not to love anymore)
把你的靈魂關在永遠鎖上的軀殼
你不是真正的快樂 你的傷從不肯完全的癒合 (You are never really happy, as you never really want to let your wound heal/don’t let go of your wound)
我站在你左側 卻像隔著銀河 (Even when I am with you, mentally we are still so apart)
難道就真的抱著遺憾一直到老了 然後才後悔著 (Are you really going to bring this regret till your last/old?)
你值得真正的快樂 你應該脫下你穿的保護色 (In fact, you are really worthy to find happiness again. Put down your false front and find true happiness)
為什麼失去了 還要被懲罰呢 (Why torture and punish yourself when you already lost something dear)
能不能就讓 悲傷全部 結束在此刻 (CAN YOU PLEASE LET YOUR PAIN END HERE?)
重新開始活著 (LIVE A BRAND NEW LIFE)
Please note, my translation is not a direct Chinese to English translation. It is a translation of my feelings for the song, to the encouragement I want to share with all my friends who are still suffering.
I understand it is never easy to forget the pain and happy memories. But since something so bad already happened to you, why punish yourself more? Give yourself some love, I will give you mine, the world is still spinning. I can still be beside you, no matter how far you try to distant away from me.
I know a couple of friends who broke up with their boy friends for as long as half a year and are still suffering right now.
So I decide to delicate my current favorite song to them, as I feel the lyrics somehow relates to them.
Here’s my interpretation
你不是真正的快乐
词曲：阿信
人 群中 哭著 你只想變成透明的顏色 (You wish to just fade away from crowd/people/reality)
你再也不會夢 或痛 或心動了
你已經決定了 你已經決定了 (You have decided not to harbor hope and given up on love)
你 靜靜 忍著 緊緊把昨天在拳心握著 (quietly you endure the pain)
而回憶越是甜 就是 越傷人了 (But the sweeter the memories you had, the more painful it gets)
越是在 手心留下 密密麻麻 深深淺淺 的刀割
你不是真正的快樂 你的笑只是你穿的保護色 (Your smile now is merely a fake front, you are never really happy now)
你決定不恨了 也決定不愛了 把你的靈魂關在永遠鎖上的軀殼 (You are in fact locking yourself up mentally)
這 世界 笑了 於是妳合群的一起笑了 (You smile only because others are smiling)
當生存是規則 不是 你的選擇 (When living on is not your choice)
於是妳 含著眼淚 飄飄盪盪 跌跌撞撞 的走著 (you can only endure, hurting yourself more in your path)
你不是真正的快樂 你的笑只是你穿的保護色
你決定不恨了 也決定不愛了 (You decide not to hate him, and not to love anymore)
把你的靈魂關在永遠鎖上的軀殼
你不是真正的快樂 你的傷從不肯完全的癒合 (You are never really happy, as you never really want to let your wound heal/don’t let go of your wound)
我站在你左側 卻像隔著銀河 (Even when I am with you, mentally we are still so apart)
難道就真的抱著遺憾一直到老了 然後才後悔著 (Are you really going to bring this regret till your last/old?)
你值得真正的快樂 你應該脫下你穿的保護色 (In fact, you are really worthy to find happiness again. Put down your false front and find true happiness)
為什麼失去了 還要被懲罰呢 (Why torture and punish yourself when you already lost something dear)
能不能就讓 悲傷全部 結束在此刻 (CAN YOU PLEASE LET YOUR PAIN END HERE?)
重新開始活著 (LIVE A BRAND NEW LIFE)
Please note, my translation is not a direct Chinese to English translation. It is a translation of my feelings for the song, to the encouragement I want to share with all my friends who are still suffering.
I understand it is never easy to forget the pain and happy memories. But since something so bad already happened to you, why punish yourself more? Give yourself some love, I will give you mine, the world is still spinning. I can still be beside you, no matter how far you try to distant away from me.
Hao to all friends that he loves
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Last sunday, i went to AFA 08 with Jianxu, Wenkai, Colin & bro, Yiwen, Daniel & Ailing, plus my Darling.
Was fun and i like May'n's voice in the mini performance.
Friends or??
Having live in this world for 25 years, i am always aware that friends come and go very fast.
They don't disappear from your life totally, but due to many factors, they do get out of your life at certain time.
I have also came to term that some friends will always remain on the surface no matter how much you hope it will change.
Over the couple of years knowing people from work, cosplay, gaming etc, i realised those friends are the hardest to penetrate.
I seem to have the time gap problem. I feel that somehow, it seems like i appeared too late into their life. They already have someone else who matters more to them. I am just a virtual entity.
Well, knowing a few gamer friends who walked out on me after moving on with their live.
They do so soon after:
- School starts
- Work starts
- Found boyfriend
These three killer culprits make up the main body of their ultimate reason for being busy.
Let me quote,
Vincent : Hi, how are you?
Friend : Busy
Vincent : So long since we chat, so hows your life (what's up)
Friend : School
Vincent : (Got a feeling, she/he's not wanting to talk) So busy ar, how's school then?
Friend : GTG, talk to you later
Some of them simply ignore sms (which i am guilty of). Not that i ignore it, i merely didn't reply immediately and forgot about it. Sometimes i do reply after a day or something, better than some who didn't reply at all. I can name a few of my friends immediately.... those apparently left my life totally. It's a pity, but oh well.
I will try to improve and reply ASAP, .....
Needless to say, friendship that remain special are those from secondary school and army days. These friends have more impact on my life.
So what do i call friends who left my life almost totally? - AWOL
What do i call friends whom i don't have their contact, yet i think of them - LOST
What do i call friends whom i may mention or think about, yet lazy to contact them - FRIENDS
What do i call friends whom i chat on msn or give an sms - CURRENT FRIENDS
What do i call friends whom i initiate chat with - FAVOURITE FRIENDS
I am really sad when i put some friends into the AWOL category. They do not value our friendship, but are now mere accquintance in life. A few happen to be colleagues, some gamer friends, a few are special ones that are entangled with my good feelings for them etc. Let me move on from here, to focus on those few remaining ones.
My current dream is to have a small cosy house and to invite friends over for a small steamboat and chitchat session after days of work. For guys, we can have beer and laughter, for ladies, you girls can have some gossip session. I am working on it.
I have come to realise, we can dream big, but sometimes we are forced to look at reality. When reality comes knocking, sometimes you have to mould dreams to fit into reality and get down to earth.
Perhaps it is this arguement that made me decide better what i want in life. I hope i will treasure relationship better and bring positive influence to people i love.
Wrong decision?
i am shocked to hear reality from someone closest to me. Maybe it is the truth that i refuse to accept years back.
I could have made another choice, maybe i be much better off.
I couldn't understand the benefit of mindless education, now i have to bow to it.
What do i call friends whom i don't have their contact, yet i think of them - LOST
What do i call friends whom i may mention or think about, yet lazy to contact them - FRIENDS
What do i call friends whom i chat on msn or give an sms - CURRENT FRIENDS
What do i call friends whom i initiate chat with - FAVOURITE FRIENDS
I am really sad when i put some friends into the AWOL category. They do not value our friendship, but are now mere accquintance in life. A few happen to be colleagues, some gamer friends, a few are special ones that are entangled with my good feelings for them etc. Let me move on from here, to focus on those few remaining ones.
My current dream is to have a small cosy house and to invite friends over for a small steamboat and chitchat session after days of work. For guys, we can have beer and laughter, for ladies, you girls can have some gossip session. I am working on it.
I have come to realise, we can dream big, but sometimes we are forced to look at reality. When reality comes knocking, sometimes you have to mould dreams to fit into reality and get down to earth.
Perhaps it is this arguement that made me decide better what i want in life. I hope i will treasure relationship better and bring positive influence to people i love.
Wrong decision?
i am shocked to hear reality from someone closest to me. Maybe it is the truth that i refuse to accept years back.
I could have made another choice, maybe i be much better off.
I couldn't understand the benefit of mindless education, now i have to bow to it.
Workout
Recently XY played badminton with her secondary school mates, that reminds me that i am in need for workout too.
Maybe i should really plan some activities with her, instead of lying at home watching youtube, which kind off makes me feel so bored.
I be going for a dinner at Marriott Hotel with Aileen and her associates. It is a kind invitation from her, but i totally forgotten about it. It didn't go well with my plan for the day.
Well, let see how things goes then.
Cya blog
Engaged
Hey guys I have finally made my move after 8 years with Xy. To make it clear, I have proposed to her with a brilliant rose on 2th Nov 2008 (also her birthday).
2 months prior the proposal, I made my research on making proposal. I also gathered information from her close friends like Estee, Stephanie etc.
After info gathering, I made a hotel reservation with a little surprise planned for her. The choice of hotel was a surprise for her. The appearance of Stephanie, Huili and Henry was also a surprise for her. Her birthday cake (heart shape brownie) delivered to the room was also a surprise for her. Lastly the proposal was the finale.
Bit of secret revealed here:
I am sorry to Estee that I didn’t include her for the proposal witness. I chose Stephanie because I am more accustomed to hanging out with her, which lowers the chance I might freak out during the proposal out of awkwardness.
I also bought the ring pretty early because of national service ICT. This is how army disrupts my civilian life, and I don’t freaking like it.
I am relieved that everything went into place nicely, but I think I looked stupid during the proposal. I also look fat and ugly as shown from the photos taken during the proposal. There’s tremendous pressure when I had to pop the words out during the crucial moment.
I admit I did freak out, but I still managed to pull through. Weird thing was, XY didn’t say a thing after the words pop out from my mouth. She remained silent until I prompted her to say something. I wonder what’s in her mind at that time of moment. Just say yes or okay, dammit! =_=
She finally took the ring after a moment of hesitation. God, I must be too imperfect for her to hesitate!
Anyway I am glad it is over, my only regret is looking ugly in the photos. I hate taking photos.
Now my status has turned from single to engaged. Looks like she is my first girlfriend and the only one I will have. My faithfulness will be the envy of women, but a mockery from fellow men.
Hey guys I have finally made my move after 8 years with Xy. To make it clear, I have proposed to her with a brilliant rose on 2th Nov 2008 (also her birthday).
2 months prior the proposal, I made my research on making proposal. I also gathered information from her close friends like Estee, Stephanie etc.
After info gathering, I made a hotel reservation with a little surprise planned for her. The choice of hotel was a surprise for her. The appearance of Stephanie, Huili and Henry was also a surprise for her. Her birthday cake (heart shape brownie) delivered to the room was also a surprise for her. Lastly the proposal was the finale.
Bit of secret revealed here:
I am sorry to Estee that I didn’t include her for the proposal witness. I chose Stephanie because I am more accustomed to hanging out with her, which lowers the chance I might freak out during the proposal out of awkwardness.
I also bought the ring pretty early because of national service ICT. This is how army disrupts my civilian life, and I don’t freaking like it.
I am relieved that everything went into place nicely, but I think I looked stupid during the proposal. I also look fat and ugly as shown from the photos taken during the proposal. There’s tremendous pressure when I had to pop the words out during the crucial moment.
I admit I did freak out, but I still managed to pull through. Weird thing was, XY didn’t say a thing after the words pop out from my mouth. She remained silent until I prompted her to say something. I wonder what’s in her mind at that time of moment. Just say yes or okay, dammit! =_=
She finally took the ring after a moment of hesitation. God, I must be too imperfect for her to hesitate!
Anyway I am glad it is over, my only regret is looking ugly in the photos. I hate taking photos.
Now my status has turned from single to engaged. Looks like she is my first girlfriend and the only one I will have. My faithfulness will be the envy of women, but a mockery from fellow men.
MayDay
This song is probably talking about people putting up a false front in their daily life. Many of us may seem happy, but deep down, somewhere is a heart that is hurt and sad. It later mentions that in actual fact, there is always something that is worth being genuinely happy about.
The music video also depicts a guy who has a girl friend, who apparently was paralyzed. And towards the end, the girl managed to smile despite her predicament. Somewhat touchy feeling towards the song, I like it somehow.
For some update on my Thailand shopping spree, perhaps you can check out my princess’s blog. She made an update entry.
Before I forget, I recently bought a laptop to replace my old pc that is not working. I didn’t have a good budget, so I had to settle for something low-end. I did some research, and found the one with the highest specifications that fits my budget. It is not wonderful, but it should serve my objective.
Will start using it soon. =)
The music video also depicts a guy who has a girl friend, who apparently was paralyzed. And towards the end, the girl managed to smile despite her predicament. Somewhat touchy feeling towards the song, I like it somehow.
For some update on my Thailand shopping spree, perhaps you can check out my princess’s blog. She made an update entry.
Before I forget, I recently bought a laptop to replace my old pc that is not working. I didn’t have a good budget, so I had to settle for something low-end. I did some research, and found the one with the highest specifications that fits my budget. It is not wonderful, but it should serve my objective.
Will start using it soon. =)
My Acer - Aspire 4930G
Model
Aspire 4930G-732G32Mn
Operating System
Genuine Microsoft® Windows Vista® Home Premium
Processor and Core Logic
Intel® Centrino® 2 processor technology
Intel® Core™2 Duo processor P7350 (2.0GHz, 1066MHz FSB, 3MB L2 cache), supporting Intel® 64 architecture
Intel® PM45 Express Chipset
System Memory
4GB DDR II RAM
Display/Graphics
14.1" WXGA Acer CrystalBrite™ colour TFT LCD
nVidia® GeForce® 9300M GS (256MB of dedicated DDR II VRAM)
Storage Subsystem
320GB HDD
DVD-Super Multi Double-Layer drive (DVD+/-RW)
Price (SRP)
$1,498
The boy who bite the tiger tooth part2
Birthday Celebration at Link Hotel
Birthday Gift
Room at hotel - Oriental Style
2nd View of room
Will add story perhaps another time
Resolved
Remember my post on having poor luck? Things turned positive during the night.
After my work, i went to purchase an external harddisk in case i lost my 2nd one. It was also due to higher space requirement that make the decision for the purchase.
As i was making the payment, the cashier asked if i wanted to apply the membership for immediate rebate. I refused, and i was surprised when the customer in front of me offered her membership for me.
She had just signed up for the membership and decided to utilize her card for me. WOW, i got a $14 dollar discount instantly!
Yeah, she was a nice lady, quite pretty too. There are still nice singaporean around i guess. There has been three incidents when i didn't bring an umbrella during raining days. I was offered to share umbrella with three seperate people. Two were girls, one was a guy. Totally cool =)
Back to story, i went home and managed to find my harddisk. That's a relieve!
My leave was approved the next day, but not without several emails. Apparently, i got pretty upset with my boss as he approved it unwillingly.
The rest of the issues resolved themselves except the samsung phone of mine. Damn... i had to pay $80 bucks for the repair and to hear XY say, it's not the problem with the phone, it's the problem of the user, me! Arghh... i admit, but it doesn't feel good.
Now that i submitted my resume to Dewi, i hope to hear good news of being shortlisted. The JD she mentioned sound tough and crazy, but i guess i should start somewhere scary, besides the pay would be a good jump afterall, considering my low qualification.
Looking forward to continue my story on XY's birthday, then onwards towards thailand.
God bless us in thailand
Her Photos
This is my friend Inuran. Damn i like her photo, she look so nice. Among her shots, these are the ones i like most.
Totally awesome!!
My Luck
My handphone Samsung Soul died on me yesterday night as i am unable to switch it on.
This morning i took out my sim card and then slot it back to try getting it back on-line. I was able to switch it on, however, the phone cannot boot pass the loading screen. It hanged.... I took out my sim card and re-tried. It remained stagnant at the loading screen.
I need to bring it down to the hospital (service center) someday.
I am lazy =(
Then i wanted to bring my 2 External Harddisks to work so that i can do some backup and transfer some data, as well as clear up some disk space. Then i realised one of my harddisk is missing. Personal data could be gone, have to find it tonight. If i don't....
I don't like the idea of people using something i bought for myself and without my permission, browsing my data...that kinda' sucks.
When i opened my email at work today, i found two negative emails.
One was my boss asking "is my oversea trip for luxury purpose?" He seems kinda' reluctant to let me apply my leave. What can i do? i booked my air ticket already.
The other email was questioning me on a few database entries i made a year ago. Apparently those were classified in the wrong category. Anyway, it wasn't my fault entirely as i merely did the upload from data collected from engineers.
Those engineers are simply 'BO CHAP' (don't give a damn, and give me BULLSHIT). They can't be bothered with the integrity of the database and give me crap. So the database is CRAPPY! LOLx
Not that i am bothered by those events, i just can't wait for all to resolve itself. I am lazy. Thing is, they suck, i don't. Yet their problem becomes my problem. That hurts.
Guess i am out of luck for the day... what is to come tonight?
=)
Released!!!
Finally i'm released from a short phase of both mental and physical torment.
The next phase would most probably be somewhere towards the mid or end of next year. It will most likely be far more painfully than the ones i had so far.
Put all those aside, i must treasure my time without such nusiance and disruption of my civilian life.
I planned to re-look at my current side business. I have planned to re-focus my energy to rebuilding it and thus making it more value adding for all my future and existing clientele.
There will be some phases that i have planned.
1. Research --> 2. Design --> 3. Action
4. Review and improvement
There will also be some changes made to my life. I hope to improve my current weak body, do as much self learning, find new jobs with my new knowledge and looking forward to getting my first house.
So much hope for the coming year, almost ignoring there is a world wide economic downturn. I can't help but fear for the worst. However, meanwhile i can only plan to build myself stronger in order to face the unknown and challenges ahead.
In order to progress, one should really build on his knowledge dramatically. Meaning to pick up a new skill and not just mastering the current skills that we hold.
For e.g. i may know how to use photoshop, i can research and further strengthen my capability with that particular program. However, i can progress even further if i learn new skills by learning to use other programs like illustrator, 3D studio max etc.
I will plan a sequence of actions to be carried out and even formulated them into an excel sheet with piorities set.
I have to be in control of my life. Time is against me, that is why i would have to cut down on gaming time. I hope by purchasing a laptop, it will eventually make me less addicted to game. Gaming with a laptop sucks (if you do not agree, please leave me a tag. Will reply)
That's all for this entry!
I read an interesting article on Yahoo. So i will quote and share it here.
The main point i am interested in, would be those in bold and red that i have highlighted.
SINGAPORE, Oct 16 - "No money no honey" seems to be ringing true for Singapore's bridal agencies, which are seeing slowing business as the financial crisis and a looming recession hit love in the country.
Matchmaking is not uncommon in the country, which has a population of 4.8 million and a low birth rate, as older men turn to professionals to find a wife.
Some agencies help link up singles, while others -- like Lin's -- help customers find a prospective wife from abroad.
For S$8,000 , a man can pick a wife from among the women in Lin's shop, send her to the doctor, and get his marriage registered -- all in 12 hours, but only if the woman fancies him too.
If he does not fancy the women in the shop, he can pay another S$2,000 to fly to Ho Chi Minh City and meet 50-100 women in a hotel, but Lin warns customers this is illegal.
"My customers are usually over 35. That is when they get disappointed with Singapore women, whom they say have too high expectations," he said.
The women can stay in Singapore for only two months on visitor's passes if they are not married to a local, Lin said.
But as business slows to a crawl amid a sagging economy, some women have to go home without a husband.
"I hope to get married," said 19-year-old Nguyen Thi Hue, who returns to Vietnam on Thursday after two months in Singapore. "I want a husband who can dote on me and love me."
Read full story - http://sg.news.yahoo.com/rtrs/20081016/tap-singapore-brides-c3bb44c.html
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LOLx, i lament at the fact that many girls in Singapore are still holding on to higher expectation for their guys despite financial independence capabilities.
The fairer sex have many times outdo guys in academic areas. I am sure there are guys who do good, but from where i studied before, guys are not as focus in academic studies than girls of the same age.
Guys tend to be more playful and less hitting on the books more hitting on girls maybe.
Since highly educated girls have better pay, better career prospect than girls in the past, they can have more choice of luxury lifestyle. Therefore, they will be less likely to settle for less.
Guys with mediocre education tend to earn less (not all, but many). They hold lower status job role and took a lesser salary. They ain't have status, wealth or power to control much in life.
They don't have extra money to spend on improving their image, their dressing & wardrobe, their health & hygiene, their bods, body language and mannerism etc. Thus, they have lower chance of attracting a SG girl with the first impression or even with interaction.
Thus, it is natural that foreign ladies (those that are in less developed countries and recieved less education) seems to be the easier way out. They have lower expectation which made SG guys seemingly to be doing better than their foreign counterparts.
No wonder guys are turning to foreign ladies. SG girls, please give SG guys a little more love =)
Do you agree with my thoughts? NO? Leave me some comments.
Here's a story of a boy who bit the tiger's tooth. (Though story don't revolve around boy biting anything)
There lived a boy (actually a man) who had a girl friend for a couple of years. The boy is very poor yet the girl stays with him despite all negative factors the boy had.
There lived a boy (actually a man) who had a girl friend for a couple of years. The boy is very poor yet the girl stays with him despite all negative factors the boy had.
The boy is:
- Fat
- Poor (no car, no cash and what not)
- Unhealthy
- Caught with addiction
- Not good looking
- Lowly educated
The boy is very appreciative of the girl and decides to buy her something that she always wanted. An ungradable lego set!!! (Actually something else, but not important)
The boy did some shopping and bought a small lego set with the most amount of money he could come up with. He left the shop very unhappy and disappointed as he could only afford a tiny set.
Weeks before the date of surprise, the girl suddenly took the boy to a lego store and told the boy what she was looking for, is an average set. The girl still didn't know the boy had already bought the lego set.
They boy's heart sanked and decided to upgrade the set in order not to disappoint the girl. He took the rest of his money for the upgrade and have no money for the rest of the month.
Just when you think everything seems romantic and fine, the boy also had to go through a week of jail term. Anything could have happen during the week.
Anxiety and uncertainty loomed the boy's heart. As the days to jail term came closer, more negativitely came to his mind. As much as he wants the jail term to pass by swiftly, he knew those days would be tough ahead.
Weeks before the date of surprise, the girl suddenly took the boy to a lego store and told the boy what she was looking for, is an average set. The girl still didn't know the boy had already bought the lego set.
They boy's heart sanked and decided to upgrade the set in order not to disappoint the girl. He took the rest of his money for the upgrade and have no money for the rest of the month.
Just when you think everything seems romantic and fine, the boy also had to go through a week of jail term. Anything could have happen during the week.
Anxiety and uncertainty loomed the boy's heart. As the days to jail term came closer, more negativitely came to his mind. As much as he wants the jail term to pass by swiftly, he knew those days would be tough ahead.
His mind is tormenting, he is suffering...
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Not a complete story as the ending has yet to happen. Will update once the story unfolds.
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Not a complete story as the ending has yet to happen. Will update once the story unfolds.
These things makes me wonder about the future. As far as i hate things happening in my life right now, some part of me is looking forward to the future.
- Economy, which country, in the next ten years will be the next big power after the weakening of America? China or India or? How will Singapore fare against many fierce competition? Will we get phase out?
- Health, will there be a greater disaster outbreak of an unknown epidemic that catches us in surprise? Or would there be a man made one that is very much disasterous like a sudden world wide poisoning etc. Will human make incredible health discovery that change the way we live?
- Technology, will robots take over many chores and aspect in our life? Will AI Intelligence be too powerful? What type of robots will we get to see? War machines, companion, maid, worker, etc.? Will we one day, buy robots to work in our family like we each own a computer?
- War, will world war 3 happen? What will happen to Singapore if war break loose in the world.
- Space, will we ever meet other lifeform from other planets and interact with them? What other discovery will unveil to us about the universe, about our origin, our existence?
- Nature, will climate change and natural disasters create a big fallout that depletes our resource, wipe major population or cause utter chaos?
- Energy and resources, will we run out or resources that people fight among ourselves, war breaks out due to scarcity of resource? Or will there be many new sources of energy being discovered?
These are some things i wished i had an answer to, one which i can see and judge for myself. Of course, i am not looking forward to a war, but on brighter side of things. Like how robots are going to influence our life positively, medication improvements, our origin secrets, outer space exploration etc.
Well, life is just unpredictable, vulnerable and yet fascinating. It is great to treasure the very existence of your closest friend, your life partner, your family, your love ones who are still around you right now!! The very acceptance they gave, priceless. =)
Give them some love =)
Love ya XY
Fr Vincent Oct 2008
Previous blog color is a messed up =)
Now it looks better, just the title picture is a little out of place. Will change it soon.
Oh, besides the changing of blog color, my life is going through some changes as well.
- Ridding myself of gaming addiction by slowly cutting down gaming time and jamming myself with self learning.
Meanwhile, here's a little story of what happened while playing LaTale (MMORPG) with people who made no sense =)
Latale is an online game very much similar to Maple Story, most of the gamers will be familiar with. It has different channels you can hop into if the current channel is loaded with players.
Quest - To kill Goblin King, a boss monster that spawn every 30 min after killed. So i went around searching for that monster. Finally found one after hopping a few channels.
So i made my move, making first hit on the boss. Then came a player named Cloud.
Cloud: OMG, you ruined my spawn time data.
Me: (Don't care, went on hitting the boss)
Cloud: KS-ER (Proceed to hit the boss monster)
Awhile later, the boss died, i took my loot.
Cloud: Keel Stealer, nvm, i got the spawn time for 6 other channels
First and foremost, I DID NOT KS. LOLx He KS-ED me instead, and he still got the nerve to call me a KS-ER. What the buck>?
I almost die laughing but at the same time swear at his stupidity. This is why i should not game that much. People aren't as intelligent or as reasonable in virtual world.
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Here's what happen in another Game - Deliverance-Online.
This happened in the game's forum. Players rambling about balance issue, thining population, gm lack of news and information, players leaving (which i did leave the game too).
In the forum, I tried to stay objective and tried to change their point of view from rambling to action. From pointing out what's wrong in the server, into telling them to act, and also gave them ideas to help the server.
Many of them still don't get it. They keep on argueing among themselves, on pointless issues and never see my point. Some didn't even read my post and rebuke me on points i explained earlier on. Call that blindness due to "I DIDn'T READ", but i called it stupidity.
Well, only until recently i see changes and effort made by the GM team, some of which are ideas i contributed like more events from the GM Team, some advertising & support for Player-held events, some screenshots collection that showed happy moments in Deli. Even if no one contributed those efforts to my ideas i gave them, but i know at least my ideas are helpful, workable and objective.
People just don't see my point. I would give them a big LOL as a bystander. Many of them are elitish whom blind themselves from objectivities, some arrogant, some pure idiots, some just want to stab you with words. Intelligent with words, but small at heart. I don't blame them, i am guilty sometimes too. It is just human. =)
I am still tempted to go back to the game, but it makes me feel stupid to do that. Those people are ingrates and elitistic people. There's even a few pinoy who see themselves as the superior race in the world. WOW!
These superior race can see their country corrupted as hell, much of population end up working as maid, but still they are superior. I get it... super maid. Not all pinoy are maids i totally agree, and i have nothing against them or pinoys. But just against the few individual who claim pinoy are the superior race. Ouch! Pure out of touch.
Each human race has their own weakness and strength. Generally, it is hard to say who is the superior race. I believe by saying pinoy is the superior race, he is making them look silly.
They can be proud of their origin, their country, but that doesn't make other country less better than them. Singapore is currently (not for sure in future) much better off than pinoy, but i rarely (actually have not seen) see such Literal Nationalism outrage.
Or Maybe i do... i always hear SG players claiming as better players than Malaysia counterparts and vice versa. It's lame. I guess i can't blame anyone, it's just human and their need to feel right, importance and better off.
What we are missing is..... - the bigger picture.
That's all for my ramble again. =)
I LOL'ed when i saw this. As much as i like the song, the lyrics made me laugh and think dirty.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OOIzU0U1A-0&feature=related
Today i will be blogging about the Ragnarok Online - Deliverance Online private server that i am playing.
The server situation now is typical for any other server that has lowering population and little GM involvement. It is a tell tale sign that makes players feel that the server is dying. I'm not saying the server is dying, but it just seems so.
So recently i tried stuffs like organizing events, giving out freebies, and even writing a slightly positive review for the server inspite of all negative ones i read. What i learn is, there is nothing much you can do, unless you are the GM.
The server situation now is typical for any other server that has lowering population and little GM involvement. It is a tell tale sign that makes players feel that the server is dying. I'm not saying the server is dying, but it just seems so.
So recently i tried stuffs like organizing events, giving out freebies, and even writing a slightly positive review for the server inspite of all negative ones i read. What i learn is, there is nothing much you can do, unless you are the GM.
If the GM wants it alive, the server will be, as long as he stops the "i am busy" shit. You don't tell your customers in their face, "i am busy". Yes, you are too busy for your customers, so get someone else to help you with it!
To make my life happier, i choose to fark care and wash my hands for a dying cause. Once again, it hit me in the face that being all sympathic and helpful towards a community that is pretty much in their own world is not worth it at all.
Now i'm happier again to finally let go. Time to rest and relax for other games or something else.
But before i leave the server aside, i am trying to make 1 billion zennies in game =)
To make my life happier, i choose to fark care and wash my hands for a dying cause. Once again, it hit me in the face that being all sympathic and helpful towards a community that is pretty much in their own world is not worth it at all.
Now i'm happier again to finally let go. Time to rest and relax for other games or something else.
But before i leave the server aside, i am trying to make 1 billion zennies in game =)
Recently compile a small collection of pretty faces of some ladies over the net.
I name the page Pretty Book. It is nothing malicious or offensive, but merely a collection of pretty face ladies for viewing. Not claiming the ownership of any photo, not using it for commercial or monetary purposes, not even advertising or distributing it in anyway.
Just wanting to keep a longer remembrance of pretty faces. Maybe a look a day at smiling faces, will make me feel better.
Will add more if possible. There's a link somewhere in my blog if you want to take a look. It is more for my personal viewing than sharing though. So don't kill me for it.
Totally no malicious, nudity or explicit content. So it's not as bad as you think.
Peace out
What!? You are still playing that old school game?
Yeah, i am playing it in a private server named Deliverance-Online. I am pretty active in the game forum and pretty infamous there for all my craps.
Thus, i think it will be pretty good if i channel my crap over to my neglected blog and make it more controversial.
So why play Ragnarok? I like the simple way the game is played. I like playing a private server as i can spend less time grinding. I like the way i kill players in that game. I can be merciless at times, while acting like a total innocent newbie.
Before you know it, you're kicked in the balls and busted.
To tell you the truth about me in the game, i am never showing my true intent and feelings. I'm too evil when it comes to gaming.
I do alot of research and whore myself to the game so much that i amazed myself. I can't even find out how to skpye with your dad but i can probably google and find out "how to pwn your bro in the game".
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I'm clueless why i can't make money out of a game, while i am spending so much more on them. Phail~!
Anyway, i am the happy smiley guy in Ragnarok Online, ready to stab ya. Join the server =)
Yeah, i am playing it in a private server named Deliverance-Online. I am pretty active in the game forum and pretty infamous there for all my craps.
Thus, i think it will be pretty good if i channel my crap over to my neglected blog and make it more controversial.
So why play Ragnarok? I like the simple way the game is played. I like playing a private server as i can spend less time grinding. I like the way i kill players in that game. I can be merciless at times, while acting like a total innocent newbie.
Before you know it, you're kicked in the balls and busted.
To tell you the truth about me in the game, i am never showing my true intent and feelings. I'm too evil when it comes to gaming.
I do alot of research and whore myself to the game so much that i amazed myself. I can't even find out how to skpye with your dad but i can probably google and find out "how to pwn your bro in the game".
=/
I'm clueless why i can't make money out of a game, while i am spending so much more on them. Phail~!
Anyway, i am the happy smiley guy in Ragnarok Online, ready to stab ya. Join the server =)
Tee Shirt designed by me. Pretty Simple, and feel free to grab it~!
Hey, i have just removed some of my blogs that i could not handle, and decide to dump all their future contents into one messy blog.
Yes and my new blog address is happy-vincent.blogspot.com
Yeah this new blog is supposed to be a happy one in which i will be happy to look at it myself. This means, i am not even to care if you like it or not.
So what you can read here are probably my ramble, my thoughts, my life stories and pretty much pictures.
It will also show you insights to the business i am running as well the games i am playing or interested about.
I do not promise you regular updates but each update should be pretty nice and casual.
This blog is of course open to all. Readers are welcomed, and don't be afraid to leave your comments. It won't bite ya.
Btw, my name is vincent.
Happy Birth date to my happy blog
Yes and my new blog address is happy-vincent.blogspot.com
Yeah this new blog is supposed to be a happy one in which i will be happy to look at it myself. This means, i am not even to care if you like it or not.
So what you can read here are probably my ramble, my thoughts, my life stories and pretty much pictures.
It will also show you insights to the business i am running as well the games i am playing or interested about.
I do not promise you regular updates but each update should be pretty nice and casual.
This blog is of course open to all. Readers are welcomed, and don't be afraid to leave your comments. It won't bite ya.
Btw, my name is vincent.
Happy Birth date to my happy blog
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