Friends or??
Having live in this world for 25 years, i am always aware that friends come and go very fast.
They don't disappear from your life totally, but due to many factors, they do get out of your life at certain time.
I have also came to term that some friends will always remain on the surface no matter how much you hope it will change.
Over the couple of years knowing people from work, cosplay, gaming etc, i realised those friends are the hardest to penetrate.
I seem to have the time gap problem. I feel that somehow, it seems like i appeared too late into their life. They already have someone else who matters more to them. I am just a virtual entity.
Well, knowing a few gamer friends who walked out on me after moving on with their live.
They do so soon after:
- School starts
- Work starts
- Found boyfriend
These three killer culprits make up the main body of their ultimate reason for being busy.
Let me quote,
Vincent : Hi, how are you?
Friend : Busy
Vincent : So long since we chat, so hows your life (what's up)
Friend : School
Vincent : (Got a feeling, she/he's not wanting to talk) So busy ar, how's school then?
Friend : GTG, talk to you later
Some of them simply ignore sms (which i am guilty of). Not that i ignore it, i merely didn't reply immediately and forgot about it. Sometimes i do reply after a day or something, better than some who didn't reply at all. I can name a few of my friends immediately.... those apparently left my life totally. It's a pity, but oh well.
I will try to improve and reply ASAP, .....
Needless to say, friendship that remain special are those from secondary school and army days. These friends have more impact on my life.
So what do i call friends who left my life almost totally? - AWOL
What do i call friends whom i don't have their contact, yet i think of them - LOST
What do i call friends whom i may mention or think about, yet lazy to contact them - FRIENDS
What do i call friends whom i chat on msn or give an sms - CURRENT FRIENDS
What do i call friends whom i initiate chat with - FAVOURITE FRIENDS
I am really sad when i put some friends into the AWOL category. They do not value our friendship, but are now mere accquintance in life. A few happen to be colleagues, some gamer friends, a few are special ones that are entangled with my good feelings for them etc. Let me move on from here, to focus on those few remaining ones.
My current dream is to have a small cosy house and to invite friends over for a small steamboat and chitchat session after days of work. For guys, we can have beer and laughter, for ladies, you girls can have some gossip session. I am working on it.
I have come to realise, we can dream big, but sometimes we are forced to look at reality. When reality comes knocking, sometimes you have to mould dreams to fit into reality and get down to earth.
Perhaps it is this arguement that made me decide better what i want in life. I hope i will treasure relationship better and bring positive influence to people i love.
Wrong decision?
i am shocked to hear reality from someone closest to me. Maybe it is the truth that i refuse to accept years back.
I could have made another choice, maybe i be much better off.
I couldn't understand the benefit of mindless education, now i have to bow to it.
What do i call friends whom i don't have their contact, yet i think of them - LOST
What do i call friends whom i may mention or think about, yet lazy to contact them - FRIENDS
What do i call friends whom i chat on msn or give an sms - CURRENT FRIENDS
What do i call friends whom i initiate chat with - FAVOURITE FRIENDS
I am really sad when i put some friends into the AWOL category. They do not value our friendship, but are now mere accquintance in life. A few happen to be colleagues, some gamer friends, a few are special ones that are entangled with my good feelings for them etc. Let me move on from here, to focus on those few remaining ones.
My current dream is to have a small cosy house and to invite friends over for a small steamboat and chitchat session after days of work. For guys, we can have beer and laughter, for ladies, you girls can have some gossip session. I am working on it.
I have come to realise, we can dream big, but sometimes we are forced to look at reality. When reality comes knocking, sometimes you have to mould dreams to fit into reality and get down to earth.
Perhaps it is this arguement that made me decide better what i want in life. I hope i will treasure relationship better and bring positive influence to people i love.
Wrong decision?
i am shocked to hear reality from someone closest to me. Maybe it is the truth that i refuse to accept years back.
I could have made another choice, maybe i be much better off.
I couldn't understand the benefit of mindless education, now i have to bow to it.




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